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Pero, kahit na jaded na ako, umaasa pa din ako na there’s such thing as love. Hindi fairytale love, napakaimpossible naman nun. Yung fairytale love kasi napakaidealistic at natatapos ang istorya nila pagnagtagpo na sila. Hindi napapakita kung anong nangyari para masabing “…and they lived happily ever after.” Yung in-between hindi naisulat kaya kaming mga babae, eto, bulag sa pagibig dahil ang iniisip namin, pag nakita mo na si Prince Charming (na haller, lahat na lang yata ng bidang babae sa fairytale eh nahuhumaling sa kanya) ayun na, the search is over, tapos na ang problema. Napakaimpossible. Yung problema magsisimula pa lang. Kaya yang “and they lived happily ever after” na yan eh napaka-misleading.

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Ang sarap lumandi, yung may tamang kilig, yung may nagpapakilig sayo. Yun lang. Pwede bang hanggang dun na lang? Di naman ako nadedevelop basta sa ganyan. Siguro minsan, tatamaan ka na lang talaga sa tao pag hindi mo inaakala. O marahil, mahuhulog ang loob mo sa taong mage-effort ng sobra. Siguro nga. Di ko kasi maintindihan tong puso na to…magulo. Yung mga hindi ko pa natural na nagugustuhan ang nagugustuhan ko. Anak ng teteng di ba? Parang gusto kong dukutin ang puso ko at hampasin ng bag kong may bricks ng matauhan.

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Ganito ba talaga pag nasawi sa pagibig, nagiging bitter? Parang lahat na lang na involve ang romantic love eh impossible, nakakagago, at hindi makatotohanan. Kasi nasawi ako kaya bitter ako. Sapat na ba yan na justification para pedeng jaded ang outlook ko sa pagibig? Sana.

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Ang problema kasi pag umibig ka, naka-cloud ang judgement mo. Lahat nakikita mo sa isang rose-tinted glass. Nawawala yung pagiging objective, sensible, at logical. Pero sabi ng mga gago (oo na, bitter ako), hindi pag-ibig yun kung logical, sensible, at objective ka.

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Minsan magigising ka na lang na tapos na, hindi na masakit, hindi ka na naluluha. Maaaring dahil lumagpas na ang araw ng pagdadalamhati or naging manhid ka na lang. Kahit ano pa man, salamat at dumating na ang araw na 'to. Ngayon maari ka ng humarap sa blankong papel at harapin ang mga demonyo mo.

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If men are clothes you can try on, how many more do I have to try to find one that will fit?

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What do you do when the Muses are trying to break free, but facing them is too much of an emotional torture?

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Why do we listen to sad songs when we are already sad? Are we just masochistic by nature?

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You are my connecting flight. To where, I don't know.

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What do you do when you're left all alone, unaware of what happened? Do you sit back and wait for things to turn around? Or, do you aggressively chase it, hoping to get answers, even if they will hurt?

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Silence wounds deeper than angry words.

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...taking the plunge head first, eyes closed, heart open...if i get injured, i'll charge it to experience.

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When you're floating, flying even, how do you get your feet back on the ground?

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This feels like a whirlwind romance, SMS edition.

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Everyone has their own double standards; it's just that nobody's brave enough to say them out loud.

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I'd go to the ends of the world if it means being with you one more time.

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Rejection becomes addicting. Before you know it, you're lying on the railroad tracks waiting for the train to blow you into pieces.

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Hindi dahil binura na kita, nalimot na kita.
Hindi dahil tumatawa ako wala na ang sakit.
Hindi dahil naiisip kita habang sinusulat ko ito, mahal pa din kita.

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...and suddenly there's light again. A sense of pride. A purpose. Waking up is fun again.

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There are nights when it gets unbearable. I have no other recourse but to open the dam and let it flow, flow, flow.

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Happiness is like the Moon: you know it's there, but you can never get close enough to hold it in your hand.

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Mornings are the hardest. The sudden rush of realization that you're alone once again is overwhelming. You want to retrace your steps and be at that exact spot right before you lost him.

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Making a choice is the easy part; Living each day, facing the consequences of your choice---that's the hardest thing to do.

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Paikot-ikot ikot ikot ikot ikot ikot.
Nag-aantay.
Nagbabakasakali.




Inamag.



(wtf!)

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What makes a woman number one? The One? Tell me. I am tired of being second best, of being number two.

For once, can't I be number one?

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I cannot go back and unbreak my heart.

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How do you know when to stop? I've seen him every single day for the past four years of my life. Is it really that easy to let him go?

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Writing, like men, does not come easy to me. So I save every thought, every phrase, every paragraph that I produce. When it is lost, it almost feels like a breakup.

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When you profess your love for me, there will be no grand gestures, no orchestra playing our favourite song together, no crowds surrounding us as we slowly walk towards each other. There will be just you and I, and the sunset bursting in various shades of yellow and red. You will wrap your arms around me and look me in the eye, tightening your grip as seconds fly by unnoticed.

"I love you."

And then the world will dissolve in a flurry of swirling colors, just like in the movies. Tears will form in my eyes and as they threaten to spill over, you will brush them away using your thumbs.
"Be happy with me, love."

I will smile and wrap you in my arms because I know you're real, standing in front of me, loving me.

(how's this for cheese? hahaha!)

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When did I stop dancing to my own song?

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Sex has a way of making you feel like you're in Heaven. But amidst the heady pleasures, you forgot that it can also make you feel like Hell.

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Thinking of you is poison to my senses.

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+ We lose our religion because we're too lazy to keep it.